January 2nd, 2017, 12:30 pm

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EmmaVieceli, January 2nd, 2017, 10:12 am     Reply

Happy new year, BREAKERS!! xxx

Less happy page though. You can see why I didn't want to post this over the festive holiday!
Well - I warned you. This page is a painful one in several ways. Another little insight into Cortland's confused state, self-loathing and general messed-upness. And maybe a more certain, awful, confirmation of any theories readers had on Harvey's personal past. Cortland's shame at his treatment of his brother back then must have a huge impact on what he's now trying to accept about himself, and the event may go some way to explaining Harvey's need for control and neatness. Have you spotted the way he straightens up photos? Pens? Poor Harvey is dealing with his own demons as best he can. we'll learn more about how the events that year lead into the current state of affairs during this arc!

For those curious on the timelines, this is about seven years ago.Harvey was around then same age then as Cortland is now. Cortland was eleven.

Sorry to start 2017 with such a dose of angst - This is such difficult subject matter. This whole series set out to be real people dealing with (mostly) real problems. It can be hard and it can cast our characters in bad light at times, but you can bet that any anger we feel towards them as readers, they're living with.

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Karlijn, January 2nd, 2017, 12:37 pm     Reply

Must hurt to live with the memory of having said that D:

'Thene (Guest), January 2nd, 2017, 12:40 pm     Reply

Ouch. Man, this is going to be hard to discuss with Harvey later.

Shy Reader (Guest), January 2nd, 2017, 12:41 pm     Reply

Happy New Year! :D

...I already loved the character of Harvey, even though we didn't get to see him often. But I like him even more now. He seems to have get through a lot.

Mccull61, January 2nd, 2017, 12:41 pm     Reply

D: Wow I am so.... just this story gets better and better all the time I just love it!!! And the detail in the bathroom mirror that you put around Cort is such a nice touch. His internal struggle.

nirra, January 2nd, 2017, 1:16 pm     Reply

im confused. So his brother Harv also gay? And they had some gay issue which triggered that fight and some law trouble?

'Thene (Guest), January 2nd, 2017, 1:40 pm     Reply

@nirra: There have been strong implications, which this comic seems to confirm, that Harvey was raped by a man. He (probably) isn't gay, and he absolutely didn't "like it", as eleven-year-old Cort accuses him of here.

Since Emma says this comic takes place about seven years ago, this would be before all the mysterious legal trouble that Cort got into, so no leads on that front.

CrimsonnReign, January 2nd, 2017, 4:06 pm     Reply

Oh my gosh, just rip out my heart ;-;

Auldr, January 2nd, 2017, 5:10 pm     Reply

There's one point I've not seen discussed and for me it's one of the keys to Cort. In panels 5 and 6 we see the accusation he levelled at Harvey internalised. THIS is the voice the Cort hears when Tommy makes eye contact in primary school. THIS is what he hears when Ian kisses him in the stairwell. This is what he cannot and dare not admit and makes him fight even in primary school (note the bandages) so no one dares call him a sissy or worse, gay. Of course, Harvey's assault would have had consequences for Cort as he was probably called "gay like your brother," and that's likely what drives his anger at Harvey and the subsequent fights. Frankly, the writing and composition on this page is a work of art. The way you have visualised Cort's shadow as his childhood self, shown us his childhood cruelty to Harvey and then shown us how the knife turned in his hand to cut himself is just masterful. Painful, yes, but like a Pieta is painful: because you have made us feel it.

natta0202, January 3rd, 2017, 7:14 am     Reply

The poor darlings, I feel so bad for both of them T^T
Happy new year to you as well TuT

chaos-of-vinnie, January 3rd, 2017, 3:27 pm     Reply

Ah I see. I was confused at first to who was who but its Court calling his brother gay in anger? Which is interesting but I suppose not entirely surprising as I've seen with gay people and gay friends of mine if they have a hard time accepting it then there's a lot of personal anger and there's only so long you can keep all that rage inside of yourself :(

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:27 am     Reply

@Karlijn: Very much :(

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:27 am     Reply

@'Thene: There are difficult conversations ahead!

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:27 am     Reply

@Shy Reader: He's pretty amazing. we're so glad people like him ^_^

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:28 am     Reply

@Mccull61: Thank you so much. So much struggle in this boy :(

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:30 am     Reply

@'Thene: @nirra: 'Thene is spot on, yeah. Harvey isn't gay. He suffered an awful attack and we'll find out at some point in this arc how that possibly span out to what happened several years later...there is a link. But it's not an obvious one, as you'd imagine with this story ;)

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:30 am     Reply

@CrimsonnReign: Sorry x

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:32 am     Reply

@Auldr: Perfect. Utterly perfect summary. There's a little more to share between the brothers, and a few more reasons for the fight in Cort, but this is the root to a lot of Cortland's insecurities and guilt about his own sexuality.
You've nailed the emotion going on, and I'm so glad. Thank you ^_^

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:32 am     Reply

@natta0202: Their lives have been so hard :(

EmmaVieceli, January 9th, 2017, 11:35 am     Reply

@chaos-of-vinnie: After poor Harvey's attack little cortland was just too young to understand that sometimes you can't fight back or what the attack meant. Until Spence and his friends jumped Cortland (though there was nothing sexual about that attack, obviously), Cortland had likely never understood just how helpless his brother had felt back then. :(